Some Part of Me

some part of me can’t wait
for the next chapter of life
the freedom
the independence

some part of me want time to stop
because the next chapter of life is chasing
with the loneliness
and a demand to adapt to a whole new world

some part of me keep thinking
about staying strong
because i have all i need
and i’m privileged

some part of me try to stop thinking
about emptiness
feeling undeserved of so many things
and make sleep as an escapism

some part of me want to believe in love
because the feeling seems great
there’s a partner to trust
and there’s another place to be vulnerable

some part of me still questioning about love
because it’s just a feeling
and it requires trial and error
with acceptance, commitment, and responsibilities

some part of me is twenty something
some part of me is unrecognized
some part of me want to keep going
some part of me want to run away