Write to Remember

When you start living alone, you realize that everybody's life goes on and you should stop (or less) complaining and just gulp gulp gulp gulp everything because you're the only one. the only one. who understand how you feel. sometimes it could be "hell yes, i can do this!" into "what the fckk?!?!" just in couple hours. Well, enjoy the moment, they said. - Art West Building, 13:35 I should start reading my subject materials but i want to read the Seriously Curious from The economies instead. It's a freebies The Economist stall. I also got a free waffle with cricket toppings (yes, cricket the insect) from there. If there's a camera, it would seems like i look so serious, but i am just tired.

Suddenly, i think about this because two of my friends plan to get their part time job here. Also, they have plan to create some strategies to get a working visa after graduate (kuliah aja belom mulai???) The first one want to get it (the part time job) as soon as possible, the second one want to try to search for it a month later, but both of them already prepared their portfolio. Meanwhile, i have an interest to take a part time job to, but i want to take a look about it six months later. I don't even have an updated resume, now (heheh). I realized that i can't (and i don't) compare myself with them. Both of these guys are (i believe) clever and ambitious, but each of us has different purpose and goals on why we chose to take master degree. I'm in the same program with one of them, but he has more experience than me, especially in marketing and advertising world. I don't know. For now, i just want to study and explore. Previously, I have a high determination...

17th of July 2019 (One month to go to a new age...) Rasanya kayak nggak nyata. "Gue di sini, nih Beneran di Melbourne dan bakal lama di sini?" Jadi, hari ini pertama kalinya menginjakkan kaki di Australia, tepatnya di Melbourne. Seharian ini gue merasa kayak ada dalam auto-pilot mode, jalan-jalan di sekitar apartemen (akomodasi sementara), ke Melbourne Central, belanja, dan ngurus beberapa keperluan untuk tinggal di sini dalam jangka waktu yang cukup lama. Kemarin gue masih di Kalibata, dan hari ini udah di one of the most liveable city in the world. Berada di tempat yang baru, tapi rasanya santai aja. Ya emang gue begini sih setiap ke tempat yang baru, jarang panik. Tapi, nggak tahu deh ya kalau nanti pas udah mulai kuliah (?) Mari bercerita dari bandara. Di Bandara Tulamarine, setelah imigrasi yang cukup panjang itu adalah antri 'declare' alias pemeriksaan barang bawaan yang perlu dicek, boleh atau nggak masuk Australia. Sebelumnya, di pesawat dikasih kartu ...

There was a haunting bitterness that made me thinking: "kayaknya mendingan pahitnya belajar......"

And I’m very tired.