I Don't Want to Push Myself so Hard (Anymore)
Suddenly, i think about this because two of my friends plan to get their part time job here. Also, they have plan to create some strategies to get a working visa after graduate (kuliah aja belom mulai???)
The first one want to get it (the part time job) as soon as possible, the second one want to try to search for it a month later, but both of them already prepared their portfolio. Meanwhile, i have an interest to take a part time job to, but i want to take a look about it six months later. I don't even have an updated resume, now (heheh).
I realized that i can't (and i don't) compare myself with them. Both of these guys are (i believe) clever and ambitious, but each of us has different purpose and goals on why we chose to take master degree. I'm in the same program with one of them, but he has more experience than me, especially in marketing and advertising world.
I don't know. For now, i just want to study and explore. Previously, I have a high determination to get a job in here as well, but i don't know.. I still can not measure precisely the direction of my capability. But, I shouldn't underestimate myself. So, for now, i just want to study and explore more. Hopefully, I could find a great mentor or lecturer to have some discussions with.
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And today, I went to a library in Faculty of Business and Economics to find a book about Strategy and Leadership. I need to read a chapter of that book because it is listed in one of the subject's reading list. At first, I read it absentmindedly, and then I try to read it thoroughly, and then I began to questioning my life's decision again (am i making a right or a wrong choice???) hahaha. Dasar mood dan minat tidak stabil.
But, anyway, after i read some pages, I started to think the practical theory and conditions in Indonesia. Thank God, at least my brain is still working, processing, thinking, and not so moody. I'm not expecting myself to be an A-lists student, but I just really want to do well. Study, and explore.
The next week is still orientation week, and the week after that the class will begin. To be honest i'm nervous and excited at the same time. I need to remind myself that there was the days when I willingly want this so bad and put efforts to achieve it. Moreover, many people (family and friends) have supported me.
I need to do my best.
The first one want to get it (the part time job) as soon as possible, the second one want to try to search for it a month later, but both of them already prepared their portfolio. Meanwhile, i have an interest to take a part time job to, but i want to take a look about it six months later. I don't even have an updated resume, now (heheh).
I realized that i can't (and i don't) compare myself with them. Both of these guys are (i believe) clever and ambitious, but each of us has different purpose and goals on why we chose to take master degree. I'm in the same program with one of them, but he has more experience than me, especially in marketing and advertising world.
I don't know. For now, i just want to study and explore. Previously, I have a high determination to get a job in here as well, but i don't know.. I still can not measure precisely the direction of my capability. But, I shouldn't underestimate myself. So, for now, i just want to study and explore more. Hopefully, I could find a great mentor or lecturer to have some discussions with.
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And today, I went to a library in Faculty of Business and Economics to find a book about Strategy and Leadership. I need to read a chapter of that book because it is listed in one of the subject's reading list. At first, I read it absentmindedly, and then I try to read it thoroughly, and then I began to questioning my life's decision again (am i making a right or a wrong choice???) hahaha. Dasar mood dan minat tidak stabil.
But, anyway, after i read some pages, I started to think the practical theory and conditions in Indonesia. Thank God, at least my brain is still working, processing, thinking, and not so moody. I'm not expecting myself to be an A-lists student, but I just really want to do well. Study, and explore.
The next week is still orientation week, and the week after that the class will begin. To be honest i'm nervous and excited at the same time. I need to remind myself that there was the days when I willingly want this so bad and put efforts to achieve it. Moreover, many people (family and friends) have supported me.
I need to do my best.
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