Gratitude

I'm thankful I still have option to control my life, to make my own decisions, and to negotiate when things almost fall apart and become destructive.

I'm thankful that I have people who believe in me, and finally allow me to choose based on my decisions in order to shape where I am going next.

I'm thankful that I've been hurt. Pain demands to be felt and it makes you realize you are alive. An individual human being who has thoughts, feelings, perspective, and emotions. Regardless of my gender.

I'm thankful when I acknowledged the willingness to surrender is alright. It has become a power where I know my particular strength. 

I'm thankful to my great listeners. They have seen the worst side of me and still stay and support me. I used to believe that I need to stand on my own all the time, but well damn-unexpected things happened between 2017-2018- and who knows a deep conversation or playing in timezone could solve a bit.

I'm thankful when I can practice "What's the worst could happen?" and then I know the worst scenario still can make myself alive. The joy of simple things can not be taken for granted.

I'm thankful for great access and privilege that I have received until this moment. Sometimes, I feel guilty about it, and it feels like I don't deserve it (because I'm not good enough). But, I only need to be grateful and use all of these resources as best as I can.

I'm thankful to amazing writers who proudly describe and share their failures. From neuroscientist, advertising guru, until blogger. Your words are powerful, guys.

I'm thankful to jokes on twitter, buzzfeed, and 9gags. Creative netizen contribute so well on my daily laughter.