Only human

Deep deep deep down, i know the reason what makes me like this. 

I know the cause, i know how it affects me.

What i’ve held for years for something as a faith, shattered. Things happened not the way i expect to be and against what i believe is right. That was the starter when everything crumbles and makes me confused. 

I’ve done a lot of questioning since then. Why it happened like that? It doesn’t suppose to be like that. My idealism was screaming. I was angry.

But then, lately, i understand all the right things only belong to God.

And people have never been free from their mistakes and their weaknesses. 

“I’m only human, you’re only human.” But let’s not make it as a justification every time when we did something wrong. If you repeat your mistakes without feeling any guilt, it’s already a choice then, not an accidental mistake.

So, acceptance makes me realized that i can stay hold on into what i believe is right, but another person can not always behave as I please, in line with my faith. And that happened because a lot of factors. In the end, maybe the road supposed to be like that. It was where the story belongs. And i got to accept it. Acceptance seems easy, but actually, it’s not. It took years for me to understand it.