Surrender

It is the best representative word to describe what I'm dealing right know
I surrender to a particular thing inside me
It's not a weakness and it's not a flaw
It's an illness that can be cured

As an adult, being responsible to your own health is necessary
And this thing is the first part to completely prove that I can take care of it
Well, there was a time when horrible stuffs happened with my hair and i can fix it
But, what's happening now is much bigger than that issue

Change is hard and not so nice
So does surrender
I was a person who doesn't like to surrender
"I can do it."
However, not for this time
Surrender is the first step to becoming better

There are two biggest causes that make the suffocating feeling dechiper
The first one is already in a progress, facing forward
The second one, appeared today, and I just knew it
It still haunted me and it could suddenly appear by some triggers

Surrender
I have to surrender
I must to


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